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Strategy

Ben Bradshaw — Tue, 31 Jan 2012 15:35:04 +0000

Lost
Lost within the bitterness
A maze of twisted meaning
Waiting for a perfect exit
Until then I’ll keep dreaming

Stuck
Stuck in a vile reality
A dark black hole
No room for improvement
No way to mend my broken soul

Tired
Tired of the constant facade
A mask that’s hard to wear
The lies are made to cope with
The truth I cannot bare

Depression
Depression has no definition
Emptiness has no category
If the heart doesn’t beat, you won’t have to feel
That is my strategy

(Written November 2010)

A new beginning…

Ben Bradshaw — Tue, 31 Jan 2012 15:20:52 +0000

There’s been numerous times I’ve told myself ‘this year is going to be different’, but I can disappointingly say that is never the case.
This year however is definitly going to be different. If things don’t change then massively over the next few months they never will.
New room now, extra friends and a breeze of confidence has just hit me!
My plan begins today, and as I sit at my window breathing in that first shot of nicotine, I smell a new beginning! This is going to be exciting….